- Apples – as many as you need (choose firm ones: Honeycrisp, Fuji, or Granny Smith)
- Honey – a drizzle (or maple syrup if honey feels too sweet right now)
- Cinnamon – a dusting (warmth without sharpness)
- Butter or olive oil – a small pat (fat carries flavor—and comfort)
- Warm water or tea – to fill the baking dish (steam softens the edges)
Optional: a handful of oats, a sprinkle of nuts, a splash of vanilla—only if it feels right.
Instructions (Go Slowly)
- Preheat the oven to 350°F (175°C).
Let the quiet hum of it fill the space. - Wash the apples.
Feel the cool skin under your hands. Notice their weight. Their imperfections.
(Grief, too, is uneven. That’s okay.) - Core them gently.
Use a knife or spoon. Leave the base intact so they hold their shape.
(Some holes cannot be filled. But they can be held.) - Place them in a baking dish.
Nestle them close if you’re making more than one.
Pour in warm water or herbal tea (chamomile, mint) to cover the bottom. - Fill each center:
- A small piece of butter or a drizzle of oil
- A spoonful of honey
- A pinch of cinnamon
- Bake for 30–40 minutes.
Until tender when pierced, but not collapsed.
The kitchen will smell like childhood, like care, like hope. - Serve warm.
Alone, or with someone who knows your silence.
No need to speak. Just eat.
🌿 Notes on Grief & Cooking
- It’s okay if you burn it. Grief clouds focus. Try again tomorrow.
- It’s okay if you don’t finish it. Set it aside. Come back when you can.
- It’s okay to cry while stirring. Salt is already in the sea.
- It’s okay to make enough for two—even if you’re alone. One portion is for you. The other is for the love that remains.
❤️ The True Ingredient
This recipe isn’t really about apples.
It’s about showing up for yourself when the world feels hollow.
It’s about saying: I am still here. I deserve tenderness.
It’s about showing up for yourself when the world feels hollow.
It’s about saying: I am still here. I deserve tenderness.
And sometimes, that’s the bravest thing you can do.
“Grief is love with nowhere to go. So we bake. We stir. We set a place at the table.”
May your hands find purpose.
May your heart find peace.
And may you always have something warm to hold. 🍎🕯️
May your heart find peace.
And may you always have something warm to hold. 🍎🕯️
